not the same anymore.

YWednesday, October 29, 2008' 9:29 AM

sometimes when everything hurt so much you just wanna let it go. because you cannot endure the pain... nothing hurt so much like now.. when you truly feel the hurt you will noe wat it is like. because it hurt so much tat you dun even noe when the hurt will stop. wat pain the most is, the person you always thought tat noe you the best, understand you the best, will stand by you when you need them,care for you.. hurt you. tat is the pain tat you would never wan to have it.. becos once you have it you will find it hard to believe and trust again.

i always thought tat i treat my frenz well and tat they could feel it. but i was wrong.. i did not let them feel it.. instead they feel tat i dun care. sometimes i really dunnoe wat i can do to make them feel it.. i always thought tat i am a good frenz already. but i am not.. i am just a frenz who noe nothing i guess..

i wanted so much tat ppl would care for me.. would sayang me.. would ask how are you.. would be there for me when i need them.. i dunnoe when i can have this.. it seems so far away from me.. all i need is a frenz like this.. i guess i have asked too much... i dunnoe really dunnnoe... it is really pain...