not the same anymore.

YSaturday, November 15, 2008' 8:35 AM

yoyoyo!!

hahah yesterday never post hor? haha too lay le la:P haha forgive yeah!! yes! today morning, i work. haha thought tat today won be able to to go for service today. but nope. i make it! cos morning called xiao xue to ask her if she have something on if not i will work in e morning:) so i called her at 7.15am.. haha damn early de lor!!! haiiz.. haha but heng ar.. never late for work.. so haha great!

today work, hmm not too bad i guess.. last three days already. tue will be my last day at work.. hmm how do i feel?? actually happy.. but a little sad oso la. cos the ppl there not bad n i got a little get use to the work there n the ppl there already. but haha no choice. dun really wanna work there liao. wan to find a job near my house one. easier for me.. dun need to travel far far.. haha can sleep a little longer. haha lazy la! :P anyway today oso work cashier.. haiiz sian la! hate it lor. cos some costumers just suck man! haiiz.. but haha some are just so kind and sweet de lor!! anyway haha faster faster finish work den good le:)

church:)
today after work change my cloth den go to church already. anyway oso late la. but not tat later yet. haha today meet uncle JX n Wan Xiu and we go chrch together:) haha cool!! today the song not bad. i like oso. oh yes! today got babies come to the church oso. haha they all are so so so cute!! hahaha cute babies:) actually i enjoy going to church.. going to church now make me feel good. even i had a bad day earlier on going there i can tell to god everything. no matter how bad my week or day was, i just need to tell him.. he will heal me.. i dunnoe why.. only going there i am able to tell him how i feel.. maybe tat is the place tat i can talk to god. ohhh.. tmr have cg meeting haha. at 11.. haha sure can wake up de!! hehehe... say only la:P

somehow i had a feeling. and tat feeling is not a good one. because it hurts a lot and its painful. i noe tat i am going through a valley now. because this is the feeling tat i got. now tat i noe y i have this, i hope tat i can build a stronger faith in god. but i am so worry tat i might just give up one day! esp this period of time, i dunnoe why.. i seem to always be in the valley.. maybe i have not come out yet when i thought tat i have. in my heart, i dunnoe i had a feeling, its so lonely, so sad, so painful. everything things seem to get far apart from me. even god. he seem far from me. maybe only in church only there i can feel him. i dunnoe.. but i noe tat i feel terrible this period. i always thought tat i can overcome all this. but seem tat i am wrong.. wat had happen?? can everything be over quickly? i wan to laugh be happy.. i dun wan to always have a saad face. or laughing at the outside but crying in the inside. because its painful.. feel so nobody wanted. i dunnoe where do i belong? how can i feoget the pain? its very pain.. oh god!!! pls let it go back to normal...

alright, i hope tat next week will be a better week for. and everything will change for the better:)

god bless everyone:)