YSaturday, December 27, 2008' 5:46 AM
ok. morning post already.
afternoon and night one. nth much today.. go church today. listen to pastor kong preach. i like to listen. because it can make me understand things which i dun understand in the past. i am glad. anyway i really like today service. and the song. THE GOD I KNOW. really nice. remember wat i post in the morning? i am moody. ya, i am still moody now or rather sad ba. i dunnoe why. in my mind like have millons and millos of things going through it. but i cannot understand or know wat is it. in my heart i know there are somethings that are hurting me. and i really dunnoe how to get ride of it. it's gona be a new year soon. i dun wan it to come with me.. haiis. i really feel like crying. crying out loud. cry like nobody business. cry all the unhappy things out and the hurtful one. but i dunnoe where can i go and cry. i dun even have a place for that. not even in my own house. i dun feel safe. i wan to cry out to god. but.. i really dunnoe how. wat's happening now? i should be happy. why am i sad? i get the course i wan.. i go to the ITE that i wan. i pass my N level wif good results. den wat's really wrong? who can tell me? i feel extra fan! extra sad! very extra today.. all the unhappy one. i wish that someone could be there for me this time. i really wan it. but i guess all i have is me.. only me..
gona be a new year? will very not good things leave behind? will all that tings that hurt me leave behind too? i hope so. really.. i wann cry.. wat's wrong? i really dunnoe..... :(
