YTuesday, February 24, 2009' 10:57 PM
hello ppl
updating my blog in sch. find it weird. hahas. anyway, feeling bad now. all of the sudden. btw, today can donate blood. hahas, i wanted to donate but they say cannot cos my vine very small. that wat they say. anyway i try three times already. GIVE UP! hahas. next time got chance den go ba. well this sat having bbq. was not really feeling excited or really happy about it. i dunnoe y. i am happy tat my frenz are coming. well i just feel tat the mood not right.. well, maybe is i think too much le ba. anyway i got a fine letter because i get caught smoking. its $30. i told me dad about it. he wanted to help me. since i am not smoking already he said. i dun wan to. i give him all the reasons. to say i am going to pay myself. i lie to him. say tat i no longer smoke but i am still. i am sorry dad. but you are a really great dad, to ppl u might not be, but in my heart u have already be the number one already. mummy, althoughtu have left me,but i have not missing you. i wish you will come back. and i am going to be 17 soon. my wish is to see you. anyway u must be safe alright, love you and dad very much.. miss u too.. pls come back!!!
why can't you understand. i just wanted to go back wif you tats all. but u wanted to go first. ok. tat i cannot. maybe sometime i never wait for you. i wanted to. but haiis. i have others frenz who are waiting oso. i cannot possible throw them and wait for you. but if i am alone, i will, and i would not mind it at all. never mind. no one could understand. i am feeling suck right now. damn suck.. can i ever be happy? i wanted to be smiling always, but there is no way it could be done.. y just a smile for me is difficult? i really dun understand it now.. i began to lost my ways. i thought that i am coming back, but den i am lost again in this path.. the help i get, i can no longer feel it.. things have really becaming tiring for me to take it all.. all too tired.. i am sorry..
