not the same anymore.

YThursday, February 19, 2009' 5:38 AM

hi,

today in sch damn damn f***ing sian. hahas. why leh? cos my pretty emily got an MC:) she sick cannot come sch. so bo bian. hahas. take care ok pretty? and really must get well real soon ya! hahas. hmm, chio bu jia min, got songka. cos her grand ma pass aways. so never see her for a week. anyway today got see her. hmm sorry ar chip bu. cheer up:) well, miss the both of them. hahas:)

hmm, today in sch, felt like got no frenz at all.. cos haiis i oso dunnoe y. nowdays oso eating alot alot! which is = i am siao liao. eat more den other days. i oso dunnoe y. i am not hungey at all one. but just wanna eat eat eat. like now have noodles after a while can eat rice. full liao still eat. haiis. i dunnoe waht have happen to me. to ppl, i might look happy. but deep down in me, i noe that i am not. i oso dunnoe why. haiis. really hope that i can get better soon. becos the feeling really suck man! dunnoe how long more i can take it. haiis. been smoking alot alot too. haiis, i am so sorry. really trying to cut down liao. but haiis, i just can;t control it. i really bu zhi dao y. sorry. haiis. i think i have been breaking the promise. so sorry yisi, hope u can forgive me hao ma? haiis. dui bu qi.. zhen de hen dui bu qi.. haiis. i noe u wan me to quit as soon as possible. haiis but i think it had became a habbit to me le. dui bu qi ...