not the same anymore.

YWednesday, March 11, 2009' 5:49 AM

hiiii..

well, felt really moddy today. i noe some of my frenz are angry wif me. cos i said tat i wanted to quit smoking but in e end ask them for cigg. I AM SORRY GUYS. i am not editted to it. but noe wat, all this while cigg has seem to be like my way of solving my problems. which i noe it won. but i am use to it. all this months. i dunnoe if u all understand. I AM REALLY SORRY.

tears are just out of my control now. i dunnoe wat is happening to me. but i am feeling hurt. i just can't find it. and its really sucks. maybe i am just so hopeless. i am a corward. i dun dare to face things. and tat is y i am still feeling sad now. noe wat, i dun wan any pain de. i am SORRY IF I DONE ANYTHING. PLS DUN LEAVE ME OR DUN BOTHER ME.. PLS...

心痛比快乐更真实
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有..

i needed you badly now. would you pls come back to me? i really need you now. i will forgive you as long as you come back. i have no one wif me now. and i need you. i am dying.. i am smiling but inside of me, i am crying.. pls come come...