YSunday, May 24, 2009' 7:03 AM
hello peeps:)
things seem to be for the better? well, feeling pressure. very very. my family give me tat more. feeling very stress up now. my family give me tat feeling, i dunnoe if i can cope it. because it seem to be getting out of hand. my dad, he is like so argh.. i feel tat i cannot communicate wid him. talking sometimes end up to shouting. and i hate tat. i dun seem to be like the last time me. i felt tat i have change alot. i am so tired. and the feeling come back again. this time i turn to god, it did help much, but not really. maybe is my heart. i never open up. tats y. for the past few service, i did not really listen hard. i seem to be backsliding. felt far away from god tat few service. i did not tell anyone, till yesterday. i was feeling the same till the ending of the service. i cried. and tat, it just so.. i have stop crying like weeks? and its sucks, because i dunnoe y. but it sucks when u wanna cry u can't. i cried so hard so much. i dunnoe y. pastor pray for me, i did not feel better. den miran n char they pray for me. i felt ok, but not good. i still cry, i try to stop myself few times but it did not work. i was feeling upset. very very. for so many weeks, this is the first time. i cry like a baby. but i stop myself after awhile. although i still wanna cry. but i stop. i just so.. i dunnoe. but thank god, i felt much better after tat.
god let me have the break through. its means tat i ahve to stop doing one thing. and he will help me to. so are my frenz:)
god bless! love ya!
xoxoxox nights:)
