not the same anymore.

YMonday, October 5, 2009' 11:28 AM

Hello

back to post liao. finally? haha like can almost forget i got a blog. LOL. anyway, been busy working! my attechment start liao, work at bugis street at Recoil. jiamin oso. but she work at Illuma. tomorrow emily going to start work. JIAYOU GIRL! :D work, are kinda stressful. but fun. so i think its alright. maybe. im like in a mess right now. today make ernest angry. somemore is real angry tat type. sigh. although said sorrry, but he need sometime to cool down. today he waited for me. thanks! :) anyway, im really sorry. for wat i have said. was angry tats y. i should have think before i said. sorry. hope that he won be angry for long. ppl trying to help me, but i give attitude. its my fault. sorry! really im very sorry about it. almost lost another fren by saying tat. sigh. next time must really think carefully before i say anything. talked to jiamin on msn just now. felt better i guess. thank you for always being there for me. :D love you. i dunnoe why. i still cannot let it go. it's been so long already. maybe i really need more time. im feeling so stress up and upset. the past seems to be like hunting me again. sigh. must really let go le. if not i really dunnoe how to move on. hmm, i can one right? JIAYOU to myself. :)) i miss church, service. i miss god. although he is always there wid me. im sorry for making u sad again god. i think he knows wat im talking about. sometimes really, i need to change. let go. let go. let go. let ppl help me. and i help myself. i can do it one. jiamin said so. and i believe i can right? ya... everything will be fine soon i hope. really. everything will go back to normal. yes? yes. it will. i must believe. JIAYOU BA CHERIE! :))

good night ppl:)