not the same anymore.

YFriday, October 16, 2009' 10:23 AM

Hello!

Today work afternoon shift. actually is morning one, but than my boss change it so bobian. than today never go CG lo. tomorrow going service. like FINALLY?! lol and tomorrow is my off day. i should be happy about it huh? i was, but than im not already. wanted to meet you all out, was happy about it. in the end, what i get was, SORRY! why tell me sorry, you should know that i dun wan to hear sorry, you think when i say never mind, it dun hurt? let me tell you, it DOES! frenz for years, and its always the same ans that i get. i dunnoe if i should be angry wid you anot. or just angry wid myself. sometime when i wanna spend time wid you all, felt bad when i never. but what i get was, SORRY! SORRY!! AND MORE SORRY! is it so difficult? i really dunnoe. if not is you wan me come down find you.. nth wrong wid that, but can you think a little for me? must give and take. i cannot always be the one going down. i know your parents dun allow. forget about it. maybe shi wo tai xiao qi le. in the end, i still have to be alone. what is the point of having off? im still alone. used to it den it will be alright won't it? yes it will. just need to get use. maybe just leave me.. dun tell me. it might just hurt less. i really dunnoe wat im thinking now. i just need, no i dun need anything.... forget it. alone will always be better.