not the same anymore.

YWednesday, January 20, 2010' 10:39 PM

trust.. important word huh? den the things you do can trust anot? standing btw you all makes me feel so tired. you said i dun understand. seriously i tell you, I DUN UNDERSTAND! im sick and tired of standing btw you all. and stop blaming me. can you all look at yourself?! can you all just sit down and talk and communicate?! is it so difficult?! i talk i say but you all dun wan to listen. now tell me! what can i do?! and what should i do?! you said we dun trust you, but why? have ou thought about it. yes, its my fault that i did not trust you but why? i never blame you. but you? and you. i tell you, you said wat to me, dun keep trust him, he lie! hey! you always dun trust him, and when he became like tat u wan to blame me? eh tell me! are you a good ..... ? this is also wat he wan me to ask.. or lets just say he said you are not a good ......! what cause you to change? both of you just dun wanna talk. just wanna quarrel.. den blame me? hello! im human too, u all cant communicate, my fault ar? why not look at the problem?! all got fault. but none wanna admit! i tell you all, you all just dun wanna care! den fine, if i wanna help, but you all just dun wanna help yourself, what more can i do? you all make me feel so upset. and all i can do is listen and take the blame, i know im not a good sis, at times im lousy, maybe im just not tat good.. i feel like crying, why coming home make me feel so stress and pressure? you make me feel like not coming back for good...